They're All Gone Now. All Gone.

It was really hard to say goodbye tonight. I hung out with Rachel and Sean for most of the night, and we ran around trying to find food and ice cream, and cursing all the restaurants that were closed. I felt so great to be out with them. And it really clicked right when Sean pulled up to my house. They're leaving tomorrow. The last of the people that befriended little freshman me when I had no idea what I was doing. My big sister.... Sean, Rachel, Camila, Alex, William, Patrick, Annie, Beth, Isa. Yeah, some of them are still in the area, but they feel gone. Just...these people....they're my best friends, and now they're all going away. I can't even put this into words, I'm stammering to find the words. It's just that warm....but cold feeling. But definitely very warm. I have all those memories now. Especially tonight. Tonight was great guys, thank you.


I feel like when you look out at night, and it's snowing, all sideways. And there's a quickly disapearing path of foot prints in the snow, and the sky is that glorious purple grey black color. And you're sitting there...drinking your hot drink -cider for me, nice hot spiced cider-curled up in a warm blanket. And if you're me, you probably just finished talking to Alex, because she makes you feel like this. It's really cold...but you have every reason to feel warm.

Well

No matter how much I love rain, it annoyed me a little today. For that fraction of a second after THOR went off I thought "fucking rain." And then immediately apologized and ran out to play in it. We missed Nippleball because THOR is stupid, but we got off with only a 30 minute run. I had a pretty boring day... I was up till 4 last night Talking -I'm going to keep that random capitalization for no reason- to Nat. I was informed that I have a nasty cracked tooth...and I'll need to get it repaired. Umm...holy shit it's 1:30. I should be in bed, but I'm not. I am kind of hungry though.... but I don't want to go downstairs. Grrr... time to go back to talking....more.

Second Day

Well, it took till the second day before I decided I wanted to quit.

But don't worry.

I'm not going to.

First Day

Today was the first day of practice I managed to haul myself to at 6 in the morning. Although I tried yesterday....but no one was there. This is the first time in about 5 years, that on the first day of practice I haven't wanted to quit outright. Of course I choose the day we have a workout as my first day. For a long while I was sticking with the lead pack. Bair, Goldie, Banks, And Dan, but when the actual workout started I dropped behind. What can I expect, they've all been at practice for almost 2 weeks now. Goldie and I went out and got slurpees at 7/11 right after practice, and sat in his car listening to Tenacious D and Queen and all manner of weird bands. Until a thuggish guy got out of his old car, with dread locks and bright red clothes, glared at us, and walked inside. That's when we decided it may be time to go.

Practice left me pretty tired, andI've tried taking a nap today but I can't seem to fall asleep. I had actually slipped out of consciousness when the bloody phone rang. With a curse I threw off my covers and went to answer it. It was the newstreak asking me what I did this summer. Still slightly dazed I responded. Went to camp. And she stammered for a second, then asked where, and proceeded to ask my questions. It was over in a flash, and I stood there with the phone buzzing in my ear. Grr... back to bed.

But I can't sleep.... so I'm sitting here. Listening to what Ben and I did yesterday. Not bad....


www.purevolume.com/zachben

Damn You Chris Johnston

Thanks to you, I can't stand standard tuning, because a whole step down sounds so much better. Damn you. Now I have to spend all of 10 seconds tuning my guitar down and up.

Home

Zach's home for good now!!!

Ben and I are probably gonna jam tomorrow. I'll put recordings up on a new purevolume. Probably purevolume.com/zach&ben

Home Again

It's been a while since I really cried... It was hard to leave all my friends today. Especially the few who I spent 7 weeks with. AJ, Mark, Maria, Jessy, Wes, Katie, Natasha, Anna. Gah. I was sobbing.
God I miss you all. I'd like you all to know I'm sitting here in my room crying. It's been about a year since I've done that.

Thank you, for everything.


Good night.

Grrrr

I'm so sorry I haven't blogged in a while. I've been rather busy locking my self in my dark room memorizing lines, and stressing, and banging my head into the wall, and gah. I'm really really stressed..... I'm doing acrobatics instead of music.....I sprained my wrist last week, and sprained/twisted my ankle last night.....But all in all, I'm still having a great time, surprisingly enough. But still.....grrr.

I think my wrist is going to break if I go through that damn routine one more time. Amalia wants me to write about her. So I'm writing about her. Moving on. I don't really know what to say. I'll be working on lines the rest of the day. And then we'll have a rehearsal till midnight tonight. Then I'll wake up and feel like shit in the morning, and we'll go to the blackfriars and work on the preshow....then I'll go get tea at coffee on the corner............ and I don't really know from there..... We have three...no four more rehearsals, which doens't leave a lot of room. I have the second biggest part next to Titus Andronicus and I got my part on friday, when everyone else got theirs monday. I've been working non-stop on my lines...and I just don't have them. I've gotten to the point where everything is memorized, but when I try and say something, I say a different line. During one rehearsal...I was supposed to be seducing someone, and they tried to leave, and instead of saying hold! I said Tarry sweet Beatrice.....wait wrong play.

I've gotten damn good at acoustic guitar, although I'm having trouble not play the 70's olympic white strat that's laying in my room. It's about time for lunch....but I don't really want to go....but I'm really fucking hungry. I think I'm going to relax today. You know what? I'm going to relax today dammit! I'll run lines right before rehearsal....but I'm gonna go read my fucking harry potter book. Although I'm not really supposed to be. Fuck that. I've been working sooo hard. I want to read and have fun. So my stomach just growled. Time to go to lunch.

Phone

All right everyone... I just got my new phone. And it's safely connected to my belt. Either give me your number again, text me, or call me.....because I have like 8 contacts, and I used to have 42.


Thanks...

More Videos

"Fucking trucks!"

Sorry it's the same song.
I have one more version of it, then I swear I'll put a new one up.

I miss

you, my camp friends. Quite terribly. Especially a few of you. But mainly all of you.

Busking in the Streets of Staunton 1/4

I Lost My Cell Phone

And I don't know where it is. That makes me mad. I'm going out to look for it again this morning in the light.... I was so fucking careful with it. Apparently not enough.

I'm sooo tired....

So we had late night rehearsal last night. Those are usually fun. Till you wake up the next morning. I rolled around in bed for hours and I couldn't manage to sleep. So I took Hannah's CD player which I still have and listened to the Motion City Soundtrack CD twice through at least, and probably half way through a third time. I guess I finally managed to pass out. I woke up at 7:30 and asked my self if I should go to warm ups.....fuck no. rolled over and went back to sleep. When I finally did have to get up, it felt awful. I locked my guitar up in its case, and dragged it down to the library. I don't remember what was for breakfast. Just that I didn't have much. I don't remember much of anything. Except Greg came in to check on our music, and his face lit up, and he started doing his power fists, and jumping. I think he likes our songs. : )

So let's see.....

TO DO

Rehearsal 2:00-5:00

Learn Song

Practice Sigh No More

Dinner 5:30-6:40

Gypsy Hill Park ?-10:00

Call Someone Hopefully

Run lines

Grr

So. We are trying to learn "I get a kick out of you" for the dance group. And I'm sorry, but we can't get that sound with a bass, a guitar, and 2 violins. Grr.... at least we have our songs and acrobatics. Okay.
Time to go work.