Mmm OCD?

Mmm... so today wasn't so great. That assembly really....wasn't that great. Because the teacher beside us was all don't talk. And all she did was glare at me, and when I made eye contact she'd glare harder. Weird... anyway, our DVD sucessfully burned, but had some major issues. Ah well. Everyones did. I was forced to go to lunch today, because I was "caught" by Mr. Knap... and then some lady I don't know, and then for the hell of it, the geometry teacher whose name I can't pronounce was like....You know....you should go to lunch. Grr....

My laptop battery is about to die, so I'm gonna try and wrap this up.

I got really annoyed with the clutter of my desktop. So I made everything fit perfectly into folders. Now all that's on my desktop is my computer, my docs, and recycle bin. Byah. I'm such a nerd. But I can find anything easily now. Mmm... okay. It just blinked.

Goodbye.

Acoustic Video

All right, so. This was one take, so it has some mistakes, I don't really care. It's good enough. This was actually written by Ben, I just love it, and I figured it out from our recording, and I think it sounds better acoustic. : D enjoy. I'll get ben to play it next time. Sound good Ben?

New Guitar!!

So, today we went to charlottesville, and I got a hair cut. No you don't get a picture of that. Although it isn't so bad. Mom took me out to 5 guys, but something was wrong with either the drink or hamburger, because it left us with upset stomachs. I got an awesome book on Jimmy Page at barnes and nobel. And last we went to the guitar shop. I played as many as I could, and decided on the one that was best, for the money. Thanks mom.

Improv Solo

My high e string...somethings wrong with it. It wouldn't bend, and I couldn't hit notes on it. I think my actions to low. So when a note is screwed up on the bottom of the fret board, that's that.

Mmm

I don't post as much anymore. And for anyone who used to rely on my posting everyday (I doubt any of you did) I'm sorry. But I just didn't feel like it, and I still don't really. Yesterday was pretty good. School was up and down most of the day. But I went home with Abby after school, and on the very last stop before her house, this person came out with a broom, and when the bus driver started to walk away, she smacked the window, covering us in soap. Then of course, the driver called the police, and I assume hell came, but we were long gone by then. We made...or tried to make 2 cakes, and she really made them, I just laughed. At one point her parents were like hey, let's go see pirates 3, and I was like ooh! I wanna see that! So we managed to go, although we didn't get the showing we were trying to. There were these really annoying kids beside us, who frequently reminded me, I was in a theatre full of people, and not on the open sea. Oh well. The movie was actually, really good I think. I was prepared for it to suck. But I think it was too long. Maybe because we didn't get out until 11. It was a good day.

Today kind of sucked. I was stuck inside all day. Well. I went outside, but only to mow. And with the sun beating down on the back of my black shirt, it wasn't very enjoyable. Not that mowing ever is. I tried to put new strings on one of my guitars today, and I ended up breaking my last high e, because that string just pisses me off. But I've got the remnants of one of my old ones on, and it still sounds okay. But I think it's an acoustic string, because it's really thick. Mmm... I'm not sure I really did anything exciting today. I wanted to call someone, but no one was home, so I couldn't really leave. Gah. I might try and call someone now, although it's getting late.

Why

Is no one awake at this god awful hour. Grr.... talking to Sean kinda made me laugh.... hah.... damnit. I'm going to take a shower, and then try to sleep again.....

night...

You Picked The Perfect Time

To leave me Mr. Bair. COME ON!!! Right when I actually need you, because this is hard, and because you say I'm missing two assingments that have grades on them. But you're gone. Gah! I'm so tired of studying. I studied all through biology. I haven't even touched Latin yet. I'm going to watch the VH-1 rock honors, and study during the commercials, then when it's over, I'll really study. But gah... I think I know those 40 bones now. I'm still screwed on the body systems. I haven't even gotten to Latin yet.... hah. Mmm...nickleback doing a cover of ZZ Top....? No thanks.
Okay... I should go. Because I'm not getting anything done.


Night.

Birthday

Not much different than any other day. Whatever. It happens. I didn't really want anything. Well I had one wish, but it was completely out of the question. Not much of a 16th birthday. I've got kind of a nasty headache. And I can't find any advil. Not like I'd take it. School pretty much sucked. We had the stupid reverse schedule. Latin was my only good class, and it was actually pretty good. But it was just one of those days. I was taken out to see Shrek the Third this afternoon, but I really really didn't want to go. So I spent the entire time texting people. I need to thank Serena for making my day a little bit brighter though.

I figure I have to wait till the weekend for it to get good. Maybe I'll do something with some people. That could be nice. I got a cell phone for my b-day although I got that awhile ago. And my grandma gave me 100$ but I had to give that up for camp. I guess today feels like any other average day, if less than average. Although it was great in the morning, at lunch, and after school. I don't know... I feel....cheated...? out of my 16th birthday. It's supposed to be something super special right? Feels like just another number to me. Maybe 16 is just corporate america. Yeah. It's just a number. Works for me.

I'm gonna go watch some Eric Clapton concert, and do homework, and IM. Just an average day.

Good night.

I'm Pretty

Tired of being lonely. And I've felt alone for the past two weeks. No one can ever do anything. : \
Gah... I don't know what to do. I can't play guitar any more. I can't play piano, and I suck anyway. Listening to music only works so long. I can't run, obviously. I can still talk to people, I can almost always talk to people. But it's not the same as being in their presence. I drove my parents and our guest out to Kline's tonight, and then went for a drive through Bridgewater. It was nice on the way back.... I got to kind of zone out, but still be focused. Apparently I wasn't focusing on the speedometer. At one point I hit 65 and I was going to 70 in a 55 zone. Whoops. Meh... still feeling lonely. My blogs not the companion it used to be. I think I'm just gonna go to bed.

Crimson

Boring day. I played guitar until it was physically impossible, and then I played piano till it was physically impossible. My guitar strings have a crimson tinge to them now, because I sliced the parts of my fingers that haven't been calloused over. When I finally couldn't play anymore, I went down and to play piano. I haven't played in a long time, and I still suck at it. But I got my Jacks Mannequin CD out and started listening to songs. And when I hit Kill The Messenger, I was like hey, I'll bet I oculd figure this out. So I did. It took me like an hour, but I'm pretty sure I have it just the way he plays it. So I'm kinda proud of that. But I can't play anymore because my fingers hurt too bad. And it hurts to type... so I'm gonna go.

Night.

Have You

Ever had one of those dreams where you're falling? Remember the feeling? I woke up like that this morning without the falling dream. Gaaaah. Well... you can IM my phone now, and it's still free. So, if you're on AIM just IM +15405608829

I Think School

Has ruined my sleep cycle. It's Saturday. I was up till like 11:30 last night. Look at what time it is now. Grr... I'm probably just going to rant. I'm really hungry... that's probably cause I haven't eaten in like 13 hours. That's not my fault though. I think I know why I woke up... hah I just remembered this. I rolled over, and I felt something jab me in the side... it was my headphones. I need a new guitar for camp this year... I just can't use mine. I found a really really nice one at the pawn shop, and I really want to get it. It's an Alvarez with a dark stained finish, and it has a real rosewood fretboard, not one of those crap ones painted to look like ebony. It's a little harder to play than the sigma martin there, but it sounds 10x better. It retails around 350 for the standards and way more for special ones, and that's without the case. I managed to get it down to 200 with a hard shell case. I don't even care how much it's supposed to cost, because it sounds better than any acoustic I've heard in a long time. It's not as good as Jakes 4000$ Larive, but it's certianly better than the average guitar. I'm sorry this is disjointed, I'm really tired, but I can't sleep anymore. I think I'll go take a shower, and then try and eat breakfast. I just felt like posting because I haven't for like 2 days.

bye

"she's pretty isn't she?"
"unfortunately."

I Can't Stay Mad Long Enough To Not Miss You

So...today pretty much sucked. Except for fourth block, and second was okay. Latin.... I'm really too tired in the morning to deal with so many excited people. Hell, I get a crack out of em...but it's too much for me. We started watching Hotel Rwanda in history. I've seen it like 3 or 4 times, so I didn't pay that much attention. I think Healy knew I was texting. I'm glad he didn't stop me. I needed to escape a little. Figures I was texting someone on the other side of VA. We had an SOL in biology. It was so easy. I was all worried. Not. I feel like I missed one, or maybe two. In film we went to Quentins house to finish filming. And ate cookies. Mmm.... right when I got back into school, my mood just dropped. And progressively went down hill. I went outside, and started burning things with a magnifying glass when I'd lost hope that anyone was going to make me feel better. I was working on burning a piece of mulch in half, when I saw an old friend come along. She can't be coming over here, I'm burning stuff like an idiot. Okay so she is coming over here. She laughed at me, then took the magnifying glass, and burned it in half. We got a piece of paper out, and tried to write on it. Then I caught it on fire. When I gave it to her, she tried, and we got it blazing. Ahhhh that was fun. I cut it in half, and gave her some of it, because I feel like it's one of those stupid things worth remembering, and laughing at when you see it. I still laugh everytime I see the mutilated doll.

My dad took me out, and we got some junk food, and I got a pen to replace the one I used up writing Bairs project. I feel like I did something else... Oh. I got a new bandana. It's black. Heh... I like black. I had a lesson earlier tonight. Didn't really do anything. Tried to learn the Eruption solo. Not. When I got home, I turned on all my jimi hendrix and just started playing. It was another one of those breakthrough moments. It was pretty awesome. And now.... I've had too much time to think. I can't stay mad long enough to not miss you. I'm having withdrawl. And it's horrible. Gah... I don't know. I feel like I should just go to bed. Tomorrows friday. I'm going to the recital, then maybe I can do something. Or maybe before. Hey Ben, I don't know how often you read this, but do you want to try and do something soon. I'm leaving for camp like a week after our school gets out. And I'll be gone for three.

Oh... I got two new CD's too, thanks to Gu. Something Corporate: North, and Jacks Mannequin: Everything in Transit.

Good stuff.



"actually I probably woulda accidentally set the school on fire."
"hahah, I woulda tried."

"This one will be a 30 second job." Coach
"That's what she said."
"WHAT FICHTER!?"

"BKBL"
"....?"
"Being killed by Loughran."

It's Funny

How looking at an old CD you made for someone can make all the memories come flooding back...

Mmm

Hello allowed readers. It was a pretty rough day. That history SOL had some stupid questions on it. So no. No one got a perfect. Which sucks. It was so fuckign easy...except for like 4 stupid questions. I wanted to go out and get dinner. Mmm.. You know, I have some really amazing friends. I don't have much more to say...other than....thanks Lizzy. I'm going to make some brownies...cause I want some.