::Sigh::

All of the sudden, I don't feel comfortable in my skin. I... I don't like this. I can't stand to look at my self, I don't like the feel of my skin, I don't like the sound of my voice, I don't like the look of my hands crooked over the keyboard. I feel even worse inside. It seems like worms are burrowing into my stomach, and my head aches, and my eyes are burning, and my whole body is shaking. I feel unclean to say the least, I feel... horrible. How bout that. Why? Don't ask me. I half want to scratch my skin off, I can't stand this feeling. I want to roll into the smallest ball, and shut my eyes, and cover my ears, and just hide, from everything. I don't feel like defending my self anymore, I don't feel like I have any protection, I don't feel like I have any friends. I don't want to be touched, I don't want to touch anything. I don't want to talk to anyone, I don't want to be a burden. But I don't want to deal with this. Well, a fat lot of good that does me. It's my fault, I'll learn.